At The End of The Day

…someone who seems just right for you. Not perfect, not a match made in heaven, but definitely seems right. He gets you, he sees right through your nonsense and still you are wonderful to him.

And yet you can’t have him.

…the place where you are cherished and appreciated. Nothing fancy but they want you, you personally and would really like it if you can be there.

Alas. As I’ve learned over the years, you can’t always have what you want.

…that desserts of fruits drenched in peanut sauce. The love of your life and then again, you can’t.

Because you are too full. Ha.

…a friendship you’d love to start and cherish.

And yet, the two of you have to part ways. Teaches you to live in the moment and not to worry too much about rushing things.

…a dog who’d rush to you the moment you open the front door.

And where are you going to hide a German Shepherd or a Saint Bernard in your 3 x 4 m2 room?

She sees him coming from across the room
And the breath was taken out of her
She tries to smile but finds out that she can’t
He asks how she was and she says ,"I’m fine."

When she is desperately wishing with all her heart
that she hasn’t come, hasn’t seen him
That he hasn’t seen her and come the way he did

She is waiting for another man
But all other men pale in comparison
to the sight of him coming towards her
She closes her eyes, trying to keep talking

She is desperately wishing with all her heart
that she hasn’t come, hasn’t seen him
But she has come hoping to see him

Hoping she can catch a glimpse of him, just a glimpse
But he has come and said Hello and talked
And she despairs, knowing the things she wants to say
Can’t ever be said, can’t ever be spoken

Again, a move by our dearest government that shows what ignorant people they are.

First of all, it does NOT address the problem. P0rn0graphy is all over the place; banning it is not the smartest move. And it is my personal opinion that the Government has no right to do this. We are not children.

Second, who can guarantee this move will stop people from accessing p0rn on the Net? If anything, I bet the hackers out there are revved to get their hands on those virtual bars, trying to tear them down.

Third, apparently the government do not remember their sayings well. The Indonesians have this saying, "Tak ada rotan, akar pun jadi." Which means that people will make do with the next best thing.

Camera- and video-phone are all over Indonesia, in the hands of teenagers by a large percentage. I personally believe that the curious and the depraved ones will use the gadget to create some Do-It-Yourself. God help us all.

This move is again just a show of power from the Parliament. Nothing good will come out of this.

Here we go again, babyluv…

Saying goodbye has never been easy.

But if, later, I had to say it the third time…

It’s easier this way, doll. What we want just doesn’t happen.

Oh, but I just wish it could.

YF.

In the spirit of being different, I’d like to thank people instead of whining.

Terima kasih pada bos-bos ku sayang yang telah memperbolehkan karyawannya yang imut ini pulang lebih awal kemarin (Jumat, 1 Februari 2008) ketika Jakarta dilanda hujan deras seharian penuh yang mengakibatkan terjadinya banjir (lagi).

Terima kasih pada bus patas AC 73 yang dengan gagah berani menerjang genangan air setinggi 100 cm di pertigaan Srengseng 609 (sampai sekarang ini gw masi gak tau tu pertigaan benernya bernama apaan, sori ye…)

Setelah gw diturunin dengan tidak hormat oleh pengemudi AC 35 yang sama sekali tidak bertanggung jawab, gw bersyukur banget masi ada pengemudi bus yang mau melaksanakan tugas dan membawa penumpang sampai tujuan (atau setidaknya berusaha sekuat tenaga.)

Berkat bus 73 itu juga lah, gw jam 7an gitu udah nyampe di Puri Beta yang sayangnya terendam lumayan dalam. Hebatnya tu bus masi menunggu dengan setia, sempat menginformasikan ke penumpang kalo dia pasti terus nyampe Ciledug walopun jalannya jam berapa, dia juga nggak pasti.

Terima kasih pada orang-orang manis di truk di depan kompleks Puri Beta yang berusaha membantu gw naik (tapi gagal karena gw sudah tak selincah dulu lagi, hahaha…)

Terima kasih pada pengemudi becak yang menyeberangkan gw di depan kompleks Puri Beta, pengemudi odong-odong yang membantu gw dan segerombolan ibu-ibu Ciledug Ceria menyeberang di depan Radio Mersi. (Akhirnya kesampean juga mimpi pengen naik odong-odong, hahaha!)

Terima kasih pada tukang ojek yang akhirnya mengantarkan gw selamat sampe ke kos-kosan. Terima kasih tetap memasang tarif reguler di saat orang bisa saja memanfaatkan kesempatan.

Dan terima kasih Tuhan, kos-kosan ku biar jelek tapi kering dan gw bisa tidur nyenyak setelah menyeberang Jakarta dalam banjir!

Am not going to claim that I am a successful person, despite statements from other people saying that I am. Ha.

What I am is an enthusiastic observer. I love watching people and this is what comes out of it.

#1. Successful people have a sense of humour.
Yeah, yeah. Hard working people are always the ones on the way to the top, I know that. But without a sense of humour, you’re not getting there. Believe you me.

I have met a lot of people, successful and not, and a sense of humour is something ALL the top people share.

#2. Successful people don’t whine.
Usually, they swear and then laugh. (See?) And then they look around to see how they could fix the problem. They don’t look around to find something or someone else to blame. No, sir.

For tip top people, blame is not something they need to take care of. It’s the problem that needs attention.

#3. Successful people see everything as an opportunity.
"Well, I’m here to work, not to do anything else." "I am here only to study English." Those are things I have heard along they way, and where are those people who said them? Nowhere in the radar.

The cream of the crop people do not usually mind having extra things to do because they see it as an opportunity to learn. They have they mind set on bigger goals thus they welcome anything, any chance at all to better themselves.

#4. Successful people do not care what other people think.
Not that they are rude. It’s more about having too much faith in themselves to bother about what other people might think.

"I’m going to be a graphic designer. My grandfather asks me everyday what I am going to eat. I told him, I’ll be eating rice, of course." An exact quote from a friend of mine who is now a successful businesswoman at the age of 27.

#5. Successful people are not the most organised people in the world.
This is a bit hard to explain. Some may appear okay but most of them have, at best, piles of work decorating the desk.

Have you ever noticed that the best place to eat is usually a bit crazed, not that easy on the eyes? It’s the same thing.

#6. Successful people do not compare themselves to other people.
That’s what really set them apart. They have their own standard.

If you are going to measure your success to other people’s, you’re only limiting yourselves.

#7. Successful people give compliments.
They may not overly generous with compliments but nor are they stingy with them.

Compliments go along way in the making of a great working athmosphere and successful people know that they need exactly that.

#8. Successful people do not advertise themselves.
Oh sure, they take credits of what they actually do. They take compliments well.

But you will never see a successful person boasts about what he’s done or what he’s got, nor will you ever see him throw his weight around. In fact, you’ll realise that the most successful people are nice people.

The seemingly up-and-coming success that is loud about himself and shows off his power every five minutes? He won’t last longer than that.

For a successful person, the knowledge that he’s done well is enough.

#9. Successful people have faith.
Here in Indonesia, most of the Number 1 people I’ve met have faith in God. They may not be the most religious people but they have this underlying belief that there is a power bigger than anything they can fathom.

Living with that in your head push you to do even better everyday. It’s as simple as that.

#10. Successful people gossip.
Well, may be not in the sense you and I are familiar with, but they at least pay attention to local news… as local as the next cubicle’s.

They listen and they gather information. Knowledge is power, a cliche but true.

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I’ve found out that I am (annoyingly to other people, perhaps) ecstatic these days.

I actually walk with a spring in my steps, how about that?

Of course not after hours when my lovely boots are actively killing my feet but even then I still have a smile plastered on my face.

Don’t ask me why because I don’t now the answer to that myself.

Probably a lot of reasons rolled into one and there are too many for me to remember.

But here’s one of the latests to add into the equation:

It was yesterday, Friday and a day after my birthday. I had to rush downstairs for a female emergency, a little annoyed because I was held back a couple of times. Add to that the fact that I hadn’t seen my Cutie Pie the whole morning. I was thinking, ‘Wouldn’t it be perfect if this turned out to be his day off,’ grumbling and walking in the way that would’ve sent a herd of elephants rampaging away when I made my way out to the bank of elevators and there he was.

He was looking as cute as ever, in a black shirt no less. I didn’t think he could pull off a black shirt but apparently, I was wrong.

Still in my state of unexplainable bliss, I blurted out, "Ah, you’re going down too?" Which was a stupid question since we were on 45th and there was only one more level above us and it was a restaurant, for God’s sake. Not to mention we had never actually spoken to each other before.

He smiled (which was already enough for me!), saying, "I need to go to the Financial Department."

We chatted all the way to the 32nd floor where he was heading. I had already had the suspicion that his English was by far more superior than anybody else in Head Office but his knowledge in language teaching was surprising.

We parted with a promise I am NOT going to write here ^_^ but I think you guys would understand why afterwards I was practically bouncing all the way to the convenience store.

I warned you people from the first line. No insurance claims, OK.?

Here’s the brief for the new things that popped into my life ever since that historical date of November 15th, 2007…

Gw jadi benar-benar mengalami yang selama ini berseliweran di telinga gw dan gw dengerin hanya dengan setengah hati… Jakarta yang jelek ini macetnya MINTA AMPUN!

Setelah dua minggu lebih beredar Sudirman-Ciledug, gw akhirnya sukses tewas di kos-kosan, masuk angin! (Hehehe, katro abis yah..)

Ya abis gimana lagi. Total gw di jalan tiap harinya empat jam. Gw pikir pindah kerja gini gw bisa punya lebih banyak jam bebas afterhours… Sh*t. Joke’s on me. Kadang gw bisa ngedumel sendirian di dalam bus, Sial, jam berapa nih gw sampe rumah…

Secara minggu-minggu pertama gw di tempat yg baru ini juga masi agak nyantai gitu. Gak lucu banget, gw stres dan capeknya justru pas pulang balik doang.

Anyway, I’ve got too many new things to talk about so we’ll save that rant for later.

Gw akhirnya bisa tidur dengan bener lagi! HORE!

Sekarang gw dah alim, tidur mulai jam 11, jam 12. Keren kan. (Tetap aja, jam 10an dah ribut cari kopi gara-gara ngantuk gila-gilaan, hehehe. Apalagi  jam 4an… uh, kalo ruangan gw gak sedingin Kutub gitu mungkin gw dah sukses ngorok di dalem.)

Dan nyari kopi gak segampang di ilep Ciledug-ku tercinta. Pertama, gw masi belom juga ngebawa mug buat gw sendiri (masi nyolong punya Jane) en Jane gak nyetok kopi. Yang biasa gw colong dr dia ya Teh Gopek.. (Sumpah ini teh enak banget!)

Trus dispenser Aqua yang ada pas di luar pintu ruangan kita air panasnya gak jalan. Sama Jane gw diajarin jalan ke bagian Operation untuk pake dispenser di situ.

(Tapi berhubung gw centil, belakangan gw lebih memilih muterin cubicle General Affairs en nyolong air panas mereka. Sekali jalan kalo mw motokopi en ada lah ‘pemandangan indah,’ hehehe.)

Next…

Gw sekarang dipanggil Ibu ‘mulu! Outrageous!

Hahaha. Gw tau sih, itu udah praktek standar, sama org2 kartu kredit juga gw selalu dipanggil Ibu. Cuman tetap aneh aja, kalo yang manggil org yg (jauh) lebih tua. Memang panggilan Miss tetap lebih ueeenak..

Terus, gw jadi kecanduan makan di Solaria. Dulunya gw ke situ paling ngikutin temen2 kampus yg lagi pengen makan murah meriah di CL. Berhubung gw pesennya  selalu yg aneh, gw gak terlalu ngefan ama tu tempat.

Eh, gara2 diajak Jane makan siang di situ, gw jadi suka (berhubung skrg dah pinter milih menu) en skrg malah jd addicted ama Nasi Ayam Nanking dia. Dan berhubung tu ayam dimasaknya sama dgn gaya masakan nenek gw - yg sudah membesarkan gw sampe ukuran yg skrg ini - nafsu makan gw jadi membabi-hutan. (Bukan membabi buta lagi, itu mah kelas bulu.. Membabi-HUTAN!)

Gila. Itung2 pengeluaran transpor plus biaya makan yg makin membludak, naik gaji gak berasa lagi dah. Hahaha.

Maka dari itu, gw lagi sibuk2 cari kos baru nih. Benernya dah ketemu sih, berhubung gw dah pusing nyari2 yang lain gak ketemu. Akhirnya gw ngomong k temen gw, Gw kos tempat lu aja dah.

Tempat dia emang ideal sih. Gw bisa jalan kaki ke salah satu pos gw - yang bakal gw satronin dua kali seminggu (Senin-Rabu). Dari situ ke pos yg atu lagi (Selasa Kemis) cukup naik 1 angkot sekitar 15 menitan.

Yang sempat bikin gw ragu cuma ukuran kamarnya. Secara gw dah selama ini beruntung mulu dapet kamar gede2… Tapi pernah juga sih, dapet ‘kotak sabun.’ Ya sudahlah, nanti juga betah. Hehehe.

Nah, Jumat gw balik lagi ke Head Office. Ini yg bakal nyebelin. Dah hari Jumat tapi gw mesti bangun lebih pagi karena ganti angkotnya 2 kali. Dan nantinya gw juga bakal pulang lebih sore - karena jam kelas Jumat dibuat lebih sore.

Yah, gak papa lah. Demi bertemu ‘pemandangan indah.’ ^_^

See you Friday, Cutie Pie!

40 Secrets About Yourself.
Be honest no matter what…

1. Who was your last text from?
+ Ronnie

2. Where was your default picture
taken?
+ A studio

3. What’s your middle name?
+ There’s no such thing

4. Your favorite cartoon character?
+ Homer Simpson

5. Does your crush like you back?
+ Yup!

6. What is your current mood?
+ So so, but because you just talked about my crush, it’s gone up a bit

7. What’s your mums name?
+ Hermin

8. What color shirt are you wearing?
+ White

9. Are you/have you ever been in love?
+ Yes

10. If you could go back in time and
change something, would you?
+ nO..!!! <— Agree!

11. Have a crazy side?
+ NO! I SWEAR!

12. Ever had a near death experience?
+ I don’t think so

13. Something you do a lot?
+ Reading - I can probably say it takes up a third of my life

14. Angry at anyone?
+ Just a lil bit

15. Who can you tell anything to?
+ God

16. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
+ A former student of mine, Andy

17. When was the last time you cried?
+ Two nights ago

18. Who would you do anything for?
+ I don’t know; the answer might exclude some people and make things uncomfortable

19. If you could have one super
power what would it be?
+ Talking to animals

20. What is the first thing you
notice about the opposite sex?
+ His forearms

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
+ Mocha Frappuchino

22. What’s your biggest secret?
+ I’m Spider-man

23. Favorite colors?
+ Red, Orange and Yellow

24. Favorite TV show?
+ EMPAT MATA

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
+ Cartoons, yes

26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
+ ASTOR and ULTRA "Teh Kotak"

27. Do you speak any other language?
+ Nope

28. What’s your favorite smell?
+ Vanilla

29. Describe your life in one word
+ Amazing!

30. Who is the last person you had a fight with?
+ I don’t remember - probably Irwin

31. What’s your eye colour?
+ Brown

32. What are you thinking about right now?
+ pRetty Boy

33. What should you be doing?
+ Nothing - just back from the office

34. Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
+ pRetty Boy

35. What are you listening to?
+ Nothing

36. Do you like forking in the yard
+ Have never done that - probably yes

37.If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
+ Ryan

38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
+ Nah

39. What is your natural
hair color?
+ Jet black

40. Who was the last person to make you cry?
+ Irwin

Di sela-sela kesibukan syuting, ternyata gw sempat juga beriseng-iseng ria - seperti halnya anak-anak remaja seumuran gw.

Hwahaha.

Eniwei, inilah hasilnya.

Kemaren itu si Jane ngirim SMS lucu, yg isinya minta gw mendeskripsikan dia dengan hanya satu kata. Cuman boleh satu kata.

Definitely difficult since she is a lot of things. I eventually settled for BUBBLY.

Kata si Jane, tu SMS boleh diterusin ke 10 org, biar gw juga dapet hasilnya, yg kata dia, lucu2 dan aneh.

Indeed.

Gw gak inget ngirim ke berapa org tapi inilah hasilnya:

SMART dari Jane. (Gw nodong balik ke dia, hehehe.)

BEAUTIFUL dari Yuli.

TANGGUH dari Danny.

HELPER atau FLIRTABLE dari Esther. (Orang ini emang suka lain sendiri.)

MENANTANG dari Ayu. (Ini juga aneh, hwahaha.)

Last but not least, WACKY dari Mila! (I don’t know where she gets that idea. Honest!)

What do you think?

Additional: Adik gw barusan SMS jawaban dia: DUREN!

Gw dengan sewotnya langsung mbalas: Hah? Duren? Apa maksudna? Duda keren? (Yang bener ajaaaa… Gw kan tante-tante idung mancung) Hehehe, ternyata kata dia, gw bisa menusuk (ups, serem ya…) tapi dalemnya manis.

Setthh. Ngakunya sih, disainer web, tapi kata-katanya duong… Bisa tuh, nerbitin buku puisi. ‘Mayan-lah buat lirik lagu di bus-bus, hahaha

Sekalian yah… gw promosi di sini… Adik gw disainer web lho… Yang pengen blog-nya dipercantik atau punya bisnis online en pingin punya situs web, harus (!) kontek gw. (Dia susah dikontek sih - profil frenster aja banyak "dogi"nya gitu. Leave a comment with me and I’ll screen you first, hwahaha)